pandoras_chaos: (Default)
2009-08-07 10:37 pm

ready and waiting for a heart worth the breaking

well kids, it's that time again. i'm off to door county for a week. hooray!
i'm actually really excited to go this year. i couldn't go last year because mychael wouldn't give me the time off. i was exceedingly crabby all last summer as a result. it'll be nice to go and relax for real.

at the same time i'm stupidly sappy and kinda don't want to leave hunter. ::sigh:: i'm so smitten it's ridiculous.

in other news, it's been a crap week of crap at work. everyone is cranky and unhappy. people keep calling off, some people are complaining about too many hours, some people aren't getting enough hours, the customers are (in general) absolute morons and i'm getting more and more pissed off at the whole thing. they don't pay me enough to be constantly pissed off at this job. bah recession. bah, i say.
and i took on another bloody wedding dress. oy.

but, for this week at least, i'll be eating my weight in cherry flavored goo and drinking far-too-sweet wine in open fields with folk music. it'll be phenomenal.
see you kids in a week!
pandoras_chaos: (collarbone porn)
2009-06-06 12:29 am

remember to let her into your heart, then you can start to make it better

interwebz is back up. hooray!
...but the virus that keeps telling me i have a virus is still running rampant. hunter was delayed in his fixing of my computer, so i'll have to wait until tomorrow morning to get it off the damn thing. bah.

in other news, saturday is no longer happening. yeah, i know what you're going to say. i'm disappointed too. more than disappointed actually, but that's neither here nor there. john barrowman twisted his ankle and is no longer able to attend torchsong this year and neither is kai owen, which means that gareth david-lloyd is pretty much the only big "star" they have there this year, so he'll be picking up all the slack. suxxors for me. i was hoping he'd call me like devon told him to, but ::shrug:: i am sadly without gdl lovin. there is a chance he'll be at her wedding next april, though, so we'll see what happens then.

on another note, i can't stop thinking about her. all i want to do is call. why does my phone battery suck? every time i go to call her, my phone dies. oy.

and on that rather obnoxious bit of angst, here's a meme:
stolen from sugrsingr )

wow. i've not done one of those in a long time.
to bed i go!
pandoras_chaos: (cyberman)
2009-06-05 02:10 am

hijacking the gym's interwebz

so heeeeeyyyyy.
somehow in my frantic minor panic attack last night at 2:30am, i managed to disconnect my computer from the internet. hunter will be fixing it tomorrow, but just as an fyi.

in other news, i've slept maybe 14 hours in the past four days. i'm bloody exhausted and sick to DEATH of this damn play. if it weren't for vivian, i would have fucked off a long time ago. i am not getting paid nearly enough for the stress, lack of sleep, and lack of nutrition, not to mention that there are just literally not enough hours in the day to get all this shit done on time.

in other other news (shut up, i'm tired), vivian and i are shopping tomorrow for something fabulous to wear on saturday. i think i've calmed down slightly. hopefully enough to actually not make a total ass of myself. we shall see. god help him if i get drunk and start dancing...

on that note, i've still got a military coat to finish before i can get my not-so-happy ass to bed.
pandoras_chaos: (gdl green)
2009-06-03 12:44 am

dude, seriously?

seriously. SATURDAY.

...what do i wear?!

ps. i just talked to rae. like, talked talked to her. on the phone. i am ridiculously stupidly proud of myself about this. you have no idea how many nerves i had to get over just to call. i'm bad on the phone.

HOWEVER, nerves about saturday totally trump nerves about talking to the girl you've been crushing on for the past year.
seriously. saturday.
pandoras_chaos: (stitcher)
2009-05-28 05:51 pm

i spoon you into my coffee cup, i spin you through my delicate wash. i wear you all day...

well, i can say with 100% conviction that i don't love quilting. it's not bad per se, i'm just not one of those people who loves it.

although having said that, mine's coming along rather nicely.
pandoras_chaos: (stitcher)
2009-05-27 12:10 am

i really need to get a better stitching icon...

can i keep this job please?

owen wingrave closed tonight, which means my awesomely awesome wardrobe job of awesometasticness ends on friday. this makes me incredibly sad. the people at COT were amazing, cast included, even if i'm not a huge fan of benjamin britten. ::sigh:: oh well. at least i've made some sweet contacts (and yes devon, i got rebecca caine's autograph for you ::grin::)

tomorrow i'm back there at noon for strike, then old navy until close, then gym apparently. thursday i FINALLY have time to make it over to joanne's and get the batting and back fabric for my quilt. hooray! i promise i'll put up pictures when i'm done.

as for now, on i merrily stumble off to bed.
pandoras_chaos: (qaf walk away)
2009-05-22 01:03 am

get back to where you once belonged

i just took the most honest picture of myself i believe ever taken.
get back, jojo )

it's not pretty, nor is it the best quality photo. i have no makeup on, my hair is a disaster and i'm in my pajamas, but it's honest.

this is me. this is what i do.

it's odd, but sometimes i feel like i need to remind myself that i'm good at what i do. everyone has fits of feeling inadequate and i think sometimes it helps to have a little reminder of why i'm making an effort in my life.
just thought i'd share.
pandoras_chaos: (freakshow)
2009-05-21 11:36 pm

super happy fun time

random question: does anyone know how to synchronize dreamwidth and livejournal so that i only have to update once? i'm currently importing all my old journal entries, etc. because this site is awesome and has a feature for that kind of thing, but how do i keep that import going once it's done back logging?

ANY help would be highly appreciated. thanks!
pandoras_chaos: (ravenclaw sarcasm)
2009-05-20 12:43 am

i'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you

i have extra dreamwidth codes. anyone need one?

along the same vein, i know a bunch of people are using dreamwidth as a mirror journal, automatically cross-posting between the two. how exactly does one do such a thing? any help would be greatly appreciated.
pandoras_chaos: (my immortal)
2009-05-18 04:50 pm


i feel like shit.

i feel like i'm cutting off all my friends in an act of selfish stupidity. why is it that i'm always more worried about other peoples' feelings rather than my own? i should probably work on that, but at the same time, i'm just trying to be a good person. then when i do pull a selfish act and try to put myself forward it's not even worth it because of the overwhelming guilt i feel. i'm just... trying to be a good friend, but do what's right for me.

and i fucked up. again.
christ today sucks.
pandoras_chaos: (dark faerie)
2009-05-18 03:37 am

...and there goes the farm

well, thanks to [ profile] aki_hoshi, i now have a dreamwidth account. i'm under the same name, so please friend me as i honestly can't remember who has one and who does not at this point. i'm planning on cross-posting everything between the two (granted i can figure out how...), though livejournal has been my home for seven years now (!!!) and i don't plan on leaving. this will remain my "main" journal, if you will. i just know that some people will be posting more there, etc.

again, please friend me or send me a message or whatever.
pandoras_chaos: (Default)
2009-05-18 03:14 am

and i've gone over to the dark side

well kids, it's happened. thanks to [personal profile] aki_hoshi, i've gotten a dreamwidth. i will be cross posting everything to and from my livejournal (at the same name), once i figure out how exactly i do that.

feel free to add me and such.
pandoras_chaos: (red hat)
2009-05-16 03:49 pm

god only knows what i'd be without you...

i don't want to move.

alright, now that that's done, i haz wedding dress photos!
cut because i didn't want to make them smaller )

it only took me 23 hours. that's not bad, i feel.
pandoras_chaos: (velvet goldmine)
2009-05-14 12:08 am


seriously. again, i know i'm super late, but honestly...


ahem. that is all.
pandoras_chaos: (stitcher)
2009-05-08 01:36 am

the end is near

one hour: seven buttons (out of 38), two slip-stitch lining seams and tacking the bridal bling.

then, i am DONE with this wedding dress.
pictures to come.
pandoras_chaos: (Default)
2009-05-07 02:11 am

erm. question?

what is this dreamwidth business and why is it suddenly so important?
pandoras_chaos: (avada kedavra)
2009-05-06 01:09 am


i was never very good at geometry.
pandoras_chaos: (lightswitch rave)
2009-05-03 12:00 am



hope your 26th year is even better than all the rest!
there's more to come as soon as it's beta'd ::grin::
pandoras_chaos: (owl)
2009-05-01 05:42 pm

in other news

happy beltane everyone!
pandoras_chaos: (fetus)
2009-04-25 12:14 am

really? really?

...and someone's stolen the spare tire off the back of my car.

jesus fucking christ.